Thoughts

My mind is racing right now and I'm starting to feel overwhelmed with all the paperwork that goes into the adoption process. Why does there have to be so much? It's like buying a house, except when you buy a house you get all the paperwork done within a matter of minutes, this is taking forever. Maybe it's because it's spread out. Will it ever end?

As we finish up our Home Study reading, I'm starting to think about the money. Why does it have to be so expensive? How many fundraisers will we have to do? Will people actually come to our fundraisers? I feel excited and scared all at the same time. I can only trust that God will take care of the details.

Race...why does it have to be an issue? Yes, my child will be black. I am white and I have so many friends who are not. To me, color is beautiful. What would this world be like if it was just one color? Boring. God loves color and that's why our world is so beautiful. I used to sing this song growing up and some of the words are... "red and yellow, black and white we are all precious in His sight." I never knew what that really meant until just recently. My little girl, my precious angel will be the most beautiful little girl and she will be embraced with so much love that her heart will be overflowing. I love her so much and I haven't even met her yet. It breaks my heart that people look at the color of someones skin rather than their heart. I'm sure God is disappointed at how the world has turned out and I think He is sad at the fact that the people/human beings He has created made race/color an issue. I know that sin is a huge part of why this world is falling apart, but I think it's OK to still desire peace and love between all people. My passion and desire in life is to please my Lord and Savior, so that when I am standing before Him, He says..."Well done."

"May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do."

Matthew 18:5
And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me.

Psalm 68:6
God sets the lonely in families.